balancing the old and new me

Something amazing happens when you have your first baby.  You are changed.  There are so many changes, and they come all at once.  Many of them are hard changes.  At least they were for me!

The hardest change for me was time.  There are still 168 hours in the week, but the way I used those hours changed dramatically.  Gone were lazy Saturday mornings of watching the news and drinking coffee with my husband.  I’m not saying the change was a bad thing, it absolutely was not.  But, figuring out how to use my time, not waste any second of it; that was more of a challenge.

I had a bit of an epiphany yesterday while I was watching a youtube video on file organization – yes, I was really watching a video on how to organize my filing cabinet!  As the lady was going through what she does, I thought to myself, “huh, that is exactly what I used to do before I had children.  Why am I not doing that now?”

My word for this year is Intentional and I have been working really hard at using that word for every aspect of my life.  My time with the kids, the amount of planning I do for homeschooling, organizing my life, finding time for activities that feed my soul, my marriage, the food we eat; everything. 

I started the beginning of the year wanting to get back to the basics.  What I knew about myself before having kids, and how I can fit that in with my life and how I am now.  It all seems to come back to time. 

If it is important to me, I need to make the time.

Of course, if I was telling myself these things four years ago, I would have laughed.  Making time seemed absolutely impossible!  I was walking around like a zombie, not sleeping, having to stay on top of raising a two year old and a new little baby.  Making meals and snacks, cleaning and organizing the house – ha!  It was challenging, to say the least. 

Even now, with two older (6&4) and one baby it is hard.  But, I have finally realized that I can’t be the best version of myself if I am not making that time.  It means saying no, it means waking up early or staying up late – but definitely not both, it means letting my kids do messy crafts so I can make dinner, it means going through and de-cluttering the house so there is less to take care of.

I’m finding the new version of me to be confident and happy and that is a good thing.  I have spent too many years being on the pessimistic side of life.  Realizing how amazing my life actually is, and seeing all the blessings that God has bestowed on my family is humbling.

I am blessed to be able to stay at home with my children, and I am thankful that I get to be with them every day.  However, I also need me time.  It isn’t me being selfish – although I definitely felt that way for a while.

One thing that I started doing that has helped spark my creativity lately is to get more into planning again.  I have always kept a planner.  A paper planner.  I have tried multiple times to get into using an online system.  Google calendar – I’ve tried it, I can’t seem to get it to work well for me.  I do like having it available on my phone, computer etc.  But, I don’t update it the way I do with a paper planner.

Last yearI finally bought an *Erin Condren Life Planner*.  I absolutely love it!  And it has allowed me some easy creative time when I am planning on my week.  I never realized there was such a community of planners online, but I guess you can find just about everything online.  You can get $10 off your order by clicking here.

My older two, especially Emma, have jumped on this planner bandwagon as well.  They are now about all things washi tape and stickers.  I have to say that it has given us all a creative outlet during the day.  It is nice to have something, even as small as planning, become a fun activity to do with my kids.

What are some of your favorite hobbies?  Do you have any tips to share on how to keep the creativity flowing when your schedule and life seem to be non-stop?

*Edited to add currently Erin Condren is running a sale on her 2015 Life Planners - 40% off!  Click this link and you will get an additional $10 off!

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1 comment:

  1. I love those planners!!! I just wish it wasn't already April :)


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