I honestly don’t know what happened this year. I started out the year ready to get so many knitting projects finished, and I was excited. But, then the baby became a teething running toddler, and finding pockets of time to knit became a thing of the past.
I turned around and it was November.
How the heck did that happen?! But, here we are, in November, and I am realizing the Christmas knitting that I diligently planned out in May (slow knitter here!) was not coming along as I wanted. I had a couple of productive weeks where I finished up a few projects that were sitting around, and then I just stopped.
Hello, my name is Heather and I haven’t knit a stitch in months.
Incredibly sad, but apparently it is the stage I am in right now.
All that to say, I started knitting a new hat this week. I use this pattern because it is free, and really easy to alter. It is just a basic rib pattern, and works really well in the winter for my kids.
I think that my biggest problem is that I think I have more time than I actually have. Even though we all have 168 hours in a week, I try and convince myself I actually have 186…and every time it doesn’t work out...surprise surprise.
While I would love to say that I am going to have some amazing hand knit items for Christmas this year, I think that it might be time to step back and not put that pressure on myself.
I started knitting again right after I got married, and it was so relaxing and fun. I didn’t have children and I had all the time in the world. Now, after three children, I still love to knit, but I don’t find as much time, or I don’t prioritize as much time, to knitting as I once did, yet I still write out knitting goals like I do have all the time in the world.
It made me lose my love of knitting a little bit.
Instead of being happy about the free moments I was able to do a couple rows here and there, I became sad and angry that I couldn’t get more done. I want to get back to that happiness of knitting, because it is something that I dearly love. And so I had to give myself permission to not knit for a while, and to not feel bad about it.
I would still love to make all three of my kiddos hats this fall, and that probably is manageable, but it won’t be manageable if I am also trying to knit scarves, mitts and toys for Christmas as well.
As for my reading, well reading is a bit easier for me to have time for – I still spend a good deal of time nursing, and cuddling children, and reading on the kindle app on my phone is an amazing technological advance that I will continue to take full advantage of.
The book that I am devouring right now is Present Over Perfect by Shauna Niequist. It is exactly what my soul needs right now, and I can’t wait to finish the book. I thought from the title that maybe it wouldn’t work for me – I have long discovered I cannot do anything perfectly; but the book starts out talking about work, and how we can throw ourselves so much into work that we tend to then overcompensate in other areas of our life.
I can definitely relate to this. I have been putting so much time and energy into my blog, something that I can see results from, that I often will spend so much time working on it, that I can’t see everything else right in front of me. I keep thinking “I just need to do x, and then I can relax.” The problem is that x keeps changing, and relaxing never seems to happen.
I am only about 25% of the way into the book, but so far I am nodding my head every time I read a new paragraph. Definitely recommend it!
What are you working on creatively? Do you have any amazing book recommendations?