years ago after seeing a post by Tsh from the art of simple blog. Every year she posts a list of questions to
reflect on your life from the past year, and I found that to be an amazing
practice to really understand what I had accomplished throughout the year.
year has gone by so fast, but that is exactly what it feels like to me.
that the year was full of amazing experiences, and it wasn’t all a harried and
frantic race, which is often how I feel – see my 31 Days of Overcoming Overwhelm
my children and the growth of my blog (also like a child). But, with those two things always seeming to
vie for my attention, I struggled…a lot.
do it all. I love homeschooling my kids,
I love writing, I love being with my family all the time, but I wasn’t able to
successfully do all the things in the ways that I was trying to.
teething toddler, or I would try to give the kids individual work they could do
on their own while I tried to answer blog comments, or take pictures, only to
be interrupted multiple times. It was
frustrating. I couldn’t seem to balance
it. I felt like I had thrown all the
balls up in the air, and they all came flying back down at me, pelting me in
the head. Not a great feeling.
time with the kids, and then would work on my blog when they were done. But, instead of just working on my blog, I
would also be taking care of the plethora of household maintenance items that
need to be done daily, not to mention cooking, and hoping the children would be
wearing somewhat clean clothes.
with them. Now, I am not so good at
playing to begin with. My kids make up
the most elaborate pretend play games with their stuffed animals, or my little
ponies, or transformers rescue bots; and honestly I can’t seem to keep up with
the rule changes! My sweet spot is
definitely in the cuddling on the couch reading a book with my kiddos, so we
started to do more of that.
the chores. Instead of trying to rush
through and get everything done, I took a step back, slowed down, and allowed
them to help and spend time with me – which is all they really wanted anyways.
though I had some amazing recipes that I wanted to share. I didn’t do vlogmas, even though one of my goals
is to try and start vlogging more (if only for the memories for my children in
the future). I didn’t post the many posts I had originally planned in December.
That is totally OK.
personal blogs before Townsend House), posting through all types of life
changes. Essentially an online diary of
my life, at some point it became a way for me to earn money for my family, and
that income caused me to feel like the blog was an obligation. Yet, at the same time, I still wanted to
share, I still wanted that open dialogue with you, my readers, to share my
struggles, my realities, the way that I move forward.
sure every post has a Pinterest image, that I tweet about it, and share it on
Facebook even though no one actually sees my posts on Facebook, well it wasn’t
as fun, and I need it to be fun.
I have had professionally, personally, with my family; I am happy about it
all. But, I know that I need to make
some changes, and that is why I love these reflections, it gives me clarity.
was successful; and also to see if it was successful in all aspects of my life,
not just one.
family. I also don’t want to give
everything that I have to raising my family and lose myself in the process.
my children is such an important job, but it isn’t my only job.
accomplish my goals. I want this because
I want it for them. I want them to see
me challenge myself to learn new things, constantly growing and evolving.
break from screens, and watching a movie with them just because, rather than
putting a movie on so I can get more work or cleaning or cooking done.
tremendously. Emma and Jack are so
involved with technology, learning to code using scratch, making stop motion
videos, and vlogging daily (even though those vlogs haven’t made it to the upload
be taken on and get her novel published, and see her receiving the most amazing
letter from an agent telling her to keep reaching for her goals to get
from any 6 year old to sit and move his little figures around his “set” while
he takes hundreds of pictures to make his stop motion movies. I see him spend time finding just the right
music, adding his own special voices, and wonder where the heck that creativity
came from (Matt, it came from Matt), and I am amazed at how bright he is, and
how much potential he has for the future.
third child, with no fear, and a fierce love for her older siblings with an
innate need to keep up with them.
us, but also full of challenges.
can’t wait to share some of those thoughts with you!